| I know Logan still cares about me and I still care about him I have a boyfriend I've been with him for a month now. Today I found out that he has a girlfriend and it crushed me so bad I started to cry. I want to be over him I really do, but it is so hard. I don't know what to do I have done like everything I don't talk to him I changed my number but ever so often I check his myspace and I just start to cry I can't believe he still effects me this much and I'm not even with him. O god I need a life. I love Miles I really do but why is that I keep thinking about Logan?? I hate every single thing about him. He is the worst possible thing for me. I don't even know why I think about him. Sometimes I wish that I would have never met him, that I would have never invited hi over that day. I don't know how our relationship go so unhealthy. I was so happy at the beginning of our relationship. He has scared me to go into another relationship. When I was with Philip I liked him very much but then I ended because I thought he was to immature. I date a guy then I end it when I find one little flaw about them. I feel pretty fucked up right now. I feel like I have so much going on just in my thoughts I don't know if I can handle it. School is starting soon. It's my last year in high school it will be hard. I need to grow up be a big kid. This is my time it's all about me, and my future. I need to pull it together and stop making boys my world.
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| So I have a lot of work to make up by THURSDAY of this week!! But when I pass it will be worth it because I need to go to Corpus!!! for band  ok so I want that industrial bad!!!
 This is my swim suit but it looks better on me maybe I'll put some pictures up
 I got a video FINALLY!!!
 I'm dying I need my cell phone back
 <====== This shit sucks I HATE CHEM!!!
 I need to play my flute in Corpus soo I must pass CHEM agghh!!
So I work at Baskin Robbins now lol I'm a scooper so yeah I guess that's all I have to say now Until next time Siboney |
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| So basically nobody reads this crap and since nobody does I'm just going to let everything out I have a boyfriend his name is Pouya but he isn't a very good boyfriend from what I know so far I think he is cool and nice and whatever and fun but not really a good relationship but not a bad one either BUT I also like this guy who I have liked since like september and he knows I do and now he is talking to me alot more and it just sucks because I think he might like me AND THEN OF COURSE their is the EX who is a fucking ass whole but I am still in love with me but I don't want to love him how is it possible that you can love someone and hate them at the same time?? I don't know but that's how I feel Finals started today I had Latin and Algebra 2 tomorrow I have History and Chemistry really really scared about chemistry |
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| After all the time, the heartache, the tears..after all the crap
you put me through...I'm still in love with you.
I would stand for 5 hours
in the freezing cold
just to be warmed by his arms
for five minutes. (which he did for me)
i know i am made of mistakes
disappointments && failures,
but i promise you there is a part of me that
that is actually worth keeping
&& I miss your hugs,
how you held me tight when I was scared,
I miss how you wiped away all of my tears,
and no matter how bad things got, you were strong
but most of all I miss how you held me up
and made me laugh through it all.
i hate the fact that no matter
how much i show you i like you,
you still do nothing about it
how long can you pretend to be perfectly happy
before someone starts seeing through the cracks
No matter how hard she tried,
she couldn't hold back the tears any longer
If I looked you straight in the eyes
& told you I wanted to be with you,
Would you kiss me or walk away ??
There`s only so much pain, a teenage girl`s heart can take.
and you my dear, have exceeded the limit
Wait for the boy who will be your best
friend. The boy who will drop everything to
be with you at anytime of the day no matter
what the circimstances. Wait for the boy
who makes you smile like no other, and
makes you smile when he smiles. You know
he needs you. Wait for the boy who wants
to show you off to the world when you're
in sweats and have no makeup on. Most
of all, wait for the boy who puts you at
the center of his universe because obviously,
he'll be at the center of yours
and if i died right now
would you feel guilty
how badly you treated me?
Everyday I miss the you
that I used to know..before I let
you down.. before you let me go..
and she asks herself...
Is he really worth crying over?
if he ever gave me the chance to
hold him, I wouldn't be able to. It
would hurt too much to let him go
i wanna be the reason you'll go to school when you have a 101 temperature.
You know that boy you can never
get out of your head?
the one that seems to relate to everything you do.
every song. every word.
the one whose name is mentioned
&& your face lights up? Yeah ;; thats you.
The Only Reason people
hold on to memories so tight
is because memories are the
only thing that won't change
when everything else does.
I always keep bumping into you ;;
everywhere i go i find you.
maybe because this could be
fate`s way of bringing us together. Or
maybe fate`s just rubbing the fact that
[( i can`t have you )] in my face
theres a little truth behind every [ jk ]
a little curiosity behindevery [ jw ]
a little knowledge behind every [ idk ]
and a little emotion behind every [ idc ]
never listen to anything a guy
says because for all you know
he could be telling another girl
the e x a c t same thing.
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